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03 December 2016 @ 10:17 pm
When You Don’t Feel the Same  
Title: When You Don’t Feel the Same
Pairing: Takaki Yuya x Inoo Kei (TakaNoo)
Type: Drabble
Genre: Romance, angst
Disclaimer: Boys aren’t mine.
Warning: My English is bad.


Love is a strange thing. I’d thought, for the longest time, that having such feeling never gives me an exact answer. I didn’t know the difference between loving a friend and loving someone special. Not until I’ve experienced how it tasted when I lost them. I had a friend, my high school friend, my closest buddy, and still remember how terribly sad it was when one day he started leaving me. Hanging out with another friend, just because I was so busy at work and he had this hard time to reach me when he needed help.

But, however, when Hikaru revealed to us that he and Yabu were dating, I was in fear.

You’re cheating. I cursed inside. I wished it was a dream, but the sound at the backside of my mind had already warned me, that they were real. That they were too obvious and I was the stupid one for always avoiding the fact. I hated Hikaru for weeks. I hated the way he stole Yabu from me, after all the fates I chose to believe. I was the one coming to agency with Yabu. I was the one meeting him first. That elevator stuff. That no-eye smile I’ve seen before any members knew about that.

I just—I just feel like I was giving him just right.


But, I, too—

I took deep breath, and opened the door connected to Jimusho’s open rooftop,


formed a smile.


“Oh our birthday boy…” he grinned.

“Why are you here? I’ve been looking for you…”

“Just breathing fresh air, and smoking.” He explained. I stood next to him and he immediately turned off the cigarette. It was one of warm nights in summer, and maybe because of that Takaki’s citrus smell got stronger impression for me than it usually did.

He looked so beautiful. Glistening under the combination of starry sky and incredible lights of Tokyo. God’s art I should appreciate. His hair needed of a trim, though. But long hair was actually just so Takaki Yuya.

“Am I really your boyfriend?” I asked.

My question brought his eyebrows to knit together. “Why asking?”

“Because you left me after our celebration. Nobody leaves their partner on birthday party.”

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean that. But juniors kept coming to you and I thought they’ll be hesitated if I was on your side.”

“Lame. Next time, give me proper reason.” I boo-ed.

Yuya smiled so earnest in the moonlight. And even though people keep thinking he’s a bad guy, for me he’s the purest child ever. And I wished I’d never let myself trapped this far. Feeling too much guilty. Because I still couldn’t just shut down my feeling for that person while I’m having this worthy guy came with his sincerity.

I started leaning my head on his broad shoulder, asking for a wrap.

“Happy birthday.” He whispered, huskily nice. While his arms were now enveloping my body.

You can’t just pretend that he was someone else, Kei.

I didn’t care that I’d promised myself to do so. All I knew was that I kissed him. And kissing Yuya was like the first time you hear a song that you’ll listen on repeat, when the song itself contained the lyric of your one-sided love to someone.



I want a chance.

A chance to prove that I was the right one for you.

But even after all I’ve done, even when I was the one holding your birthday cake, your eyes still wander around, and it won’t be that hard to look up for an answer.

You were looking for something.

For someone.

They're telling that you’re still into him.

But the kiss felt so awesome. The way your hands grabbed my collar-shirt, travelled around my neck, and covering me gracefully more than ten boxes of Marlboro could’ve done.

And I was so afraid---

“I love you, Yuya.”


“Thanks for appreciating my birthday.”

You said into my ears.

And maybe,

I should just try harder.


A/N: I'm back. With a creepy fic. But this is all I can do for now so pardon me Orz
Thanks to Charlie Puth (Selena Gomez)'s We Don't Talk Anymore. Idk how many times this song saved me already.
Current Location: my room
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Charlie Puth ft. Selena Gomez - We Don't Talk Anymore
ryoyuchanryoyuchan on December 3rd, 2016 04:05 pm (UTC)
Tachan!!! You're back!! I think it's not creepy, but it's more of the angst...
Yepp, definitely waiting for another story of them...
tasuku_kyota: pic#126386445tasuku_kyota on December 3rd, 2016 08:56 pm (UTC)
Yeah im back and thanks for dropping by!! God Idk how to write anymore, and why should i bring angst while i miss takanoo lovey dovey time huhuhu
lumi-chan: TakaInolu_mi_na on December 3rd, 2016 07:57 pm (UTC)


Takaki knowing the juniors are afraid of him that's why he left them with Inoo and Inoo knowing Takaki to be the purest kind of human on this earth omg my heart <333 ;;

Yabuhika together~ I couldn't help but remember their kiss during the concert XD omg I NEED TAKANOO KISS ON STAGE TOO!! :X T_T
tasuku_kyota: pic#126386445tasuku_kyota on December 3rd, 2016 08:58 pm (UTC)

Thanks for immediately dropping by!! And bad inoo is bad, he already had yuya on his side and yabu had hikaru, why should he get confused still?!! He should just loving yuya the way yuya loved him uhuhu wth im saying orz i miss takanoo i miss them looking at each other shylily sweet
heysayuyan: GML Yuyaheysayuyan on December 3rd, 2016 11:07 pm (UTC)
Yuyaaaa ( ; _ ; ) He's such a good guy, worthy of so much more. He doesn't deserved this. (T^T)

But his love for Kei is just UGHHHHHJJJ ganbatte, Yuya!!!!! ( ´ A ` 。 )
tasuku_kyota: pic#126386445tasuku_kyota on December 4th, 2016 02:20 am (UTC)
You right, inoo should realize it as soon ap, that yuya is the one who won't leave him, yuya himself said he is a dedicated guy lolol

Thanks for giving me choco gil ^^
Erisu EruErisu Eru on December 4th, 2016 12:12 am (UTC)
Otsukaresama Tachann~~ 🍀🍀🍃😆

Welcome back..!!! Really miss ur fanfic 😭😭 No! It's not creepy ff but it's was a great ff that Eru can felt their sadness & hardness in their love.. Wow..!! Eru can't believe why can Eru feel it 😂😂😅

Btw, Eru really miss Tachan & ur fanfic too 😄🍀🍀🍃 hope Tachan write more TakaNooBu fic again 😊🍀💚💖
tasuku_kyota: pic#126386445tasuku_kyota on December 4th, 2016 02:21 am (UTC)
Eruuuuuuuuu i miss you!! Arigatou nee eru for still reading and always motivating me

Yep, real life kept me from writing like i used to, but my love for takanoo is still very strong i hope i will keep supplying stories for this journal ^^

Love yaa~~~
alois_trancyalois_trancy on December 4th, 2016 12:10 pm (UTC)

how about this??

I've been thinking 'bout the times
You walked out on me
There were moments I'd believe, you were there
Do I miss you, or am I lying to my self again

I do these things...
(It's all because of you)
I keep holding on, but I'll try
(try not to think of you)
Love don't leave me lonely
I'll be alright without you

tasuku_kyotatasuku_kyota on December 5th, 2016 03:19 am (UTC)
what song is that babe?
ficreader_02ficreader_02 on December 4th, 2016 09:23 pm (UTC)
Awww you made Yuya so sad and frustrated but I know Kei is really loving him too! It would take time to get over Yabu though, Yuya just need to distant him from his ex-love to make him forget.

Otsukare Tachan! I envy you, you were able to write a comeback fic unlike me... Huhu 😢
tasuku_kyotatasuku_kyota on December 5th, 2016 03:21 am (UTC)
but the problem is they are bandmates ;; yuya cant really take inoo away from him uhuhuhu but ofc inoo will finally fall for yuya unconditionally ^^

i know that feel, i cant guarantee too when will i be able to write another one :(
arindika: pic#126879428arindika on December 11th, 2016 12:22 pm (UTC)
Hi, tat chan. I am not sure that you remember me. It's been a long time since I open my lj, and i thing I am missing a lot of your fics.
I am getting Inoo's virus right now after I come back to lj and I've been crazy to read all Inoo fics. And I know you have a lot of them so I will make it my mission to read all of them. But I am sorry if I can't leave a comment in every fic.

tasuku_kyotatasuku_kyota on January 13th, 2017 07:10 am (UTC)
Re: Hi,
Hi arin!! Ofc i remember you!! Sorry for late reply but im so happy that you got inoo virus wwwwww that guy is such a magic ryte
thanks for reading n commenting as well :D
inoooujoinoooujo on December 25th, 2016 08:00 am (UTC)
*raise hug TakaInoo banner
This fic is so relate with what happened recently. YabuInoo ship is sinking... or do they even drowning now?(;_;) #slapped
But yes, Yuya. As you got a chance, don't waste it! You should try harder, Yuyan! Win Inoo's heart please!!
Sorry for the mess commentT-Tv (and the super very late comment) I'm so happy you're writing again, Tachan!
As always, i like your fic~ thank you for the update♥
tasuku_kyotatasuku_kyota on January 13th, 2017 07:12 am (UTC)
my giiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrlllllll thanks so much for giving me sweet chocolate :D

you, as always, make me motivated to write takanoo again, ugh recently my heart is so weak for takanoo, i cant handle their sweetness sorry orz
and to think they had phone calls in a long time huhuhu
jendaiyujendaiyu on January 4th, 2017 11:52 am (UTC)


Yeah, totally agree that Yuyan maybe looks scary but inside he's the purest guy.

Awww that right Yuya, you need to try harder, make Kei yours!

Thank you for this fanfic :*

tasuku_kyotatasuku_kyota on January 13th, 2017 07:10 am (UTC)
thanks for the lovely comment as well :D

of course yuya should work harder! but in real life i think yuya is quite cool lol while inoo is so happy with their growing up relationship <3